I may have a problem with alcohol.

*whew* OK that felt big.

Ver wife is away hiking again. I’ve had a shit day at work, lapsed into drinking, and then posted a bunch of music videos on my Fbook page. Predominantly this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jfMcz34ReFg&t=1632s

Not the first time I’ve done that. When she was away hiking the PCT (a LONG time, fact fans) this happened more than once.

Those of us with memories might remember some of my postings when she was away last year, especially about Scott Hutchison.

I find it SO much easier to…feel my emotions after a drink or two. Or three. I don’t compartmentalize, and I feel freer, and I can talk more about things that touch me or feel personal. When I show up at work, or when I speak to anyone other than my wife, I feel I putting up a HUGE shield. Wit, sarcasm, the usual weapons to deflect the arch sentimentalism that comes up after a decent gin.

I often feel that I need a drink to fully feel my emotions; if I don’t, it feels like I’m blocking things off. Frank Wilson is better after a glass of wine; Frightened Rabbit » Continue Reading.