I had my first Covid vaccine today. I was elated as I walked back to my car which, considering the few days before, was a strange sensation.
I think I had a small breakdown this week.
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When I had my big breakdown, in August 2018, 5 months after Des, my oldest friend, had suddenly died, I got some help.
Through NHS Talking Therapies I learned about my particular depression and how to cope with the overwhelming anxiety. Putting my hand up, and asking for help, was the best thing I’ve ever done.
Fast forward to March 2020 and, as the first Lockdown kicked in, Talking Therapies approached me and asked if I would be part of a mental health survey. For the first few months it was a weekly email, which took a few minutes to complete, before it went monthly, in October. Some of the questions varied, week to week. The ones which were always there were about self-harm and suicidal thoughts.
I completed the survey as soon as it arrived in my inbox, reflecting on the week or month I had just had, and being as truthful as I » Continue Reading.