Most of my adult life I have worked shifts. When I was younger (up until my mid 40s), I coped with this without any serious problems, but when my wife passed away shortly before my 45th birthday I asked my doctor for & was prescribed sleeping pills.
At first they did the trick, but I found that they became a way of shutting away the bad things in my life.
One consequence of living 150 miles from my nearest family/friends was that I made some appalling financial decisions & as a result I will probably have to continue to work even after I become due my state pension which is currently due to be paid in about 14 months.
No complaints, I should have thought a little more & spent a lot less & perhaps things may have panned out differently – hey ho, 20/20 hindsight & all that.
Not sure how to really describe my problem, but I do feel that just confessing/putting it out there (here) may be the best thing.
I think I have managed to get myself addicted to sleeping pills. I get them from 2 people who are prescribed them but don’t use them & they give them to me.
This has been the way for several years now, & before that I was eating high strength nytol like they were sweets.
Part of me wants to go to my GP & put my hands up, but I am really scared of the consequences both medically & legally.
The thought of running out of them gives me real concern & I genuinely don’t know what to do.
Sorry for the rambling & incoherent nature of this post.
I would really appreciate any/ all advice.
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