I’ve always been a worrier. It goes with the depression. You know, like a supermarket promotion, ‘two for one,’ ‘buy one, get one free.’
I worry about everything. Life. I worry about Life. I don’t worry about death. Not since the suicide attempt. No fears about death.
She was gorgeous.
You know when you’re 17 years old and life has started to become complicated? When responsibilities begin to creep in and tug at your sleeve, and whisper, “Attend to me. Listen to me.”? I didn’t want anything to do with them – still don’t, (says the old git, on his second marriage, second house, responsible job, good salary,) I fucking hate responsibility.
She had deep blue eyes.
Music was my sanctuary, my port in the storm of life. I could wrap myself in my albums, my stereo, my headphones, and escape the world of responsibility.
When I say deep blue, I mean Atlantis deep, submariner deep, ‘you’ll get the bends’ deep.
You know, deep blue.
I swam in those eyes. For two and a half years, I was an Olympic swimmer in those eyes. Mark Spitz? Probably Duncan Goodhew.
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I have loved this song since it appeared on the Wildflowers album, 22 years ago. I know it off by heart, inside out and upside down. There is a couplet in the lyrics that I cherish, because it speaks to my heart, my soul.
I am an inveterate worrier. A few years before he died I had a long conversation with my Dad, about The Troubles in Ireland, and how they were affecting his brother and my cousins. I was terrified. His advice has stuck with me, even when I can’t adhere to it: “Why worry about things that you can’t control? It’s a waste of time and energy.”
Anyway, the lyric in this gorgeous song is: “I’m so tired of being tired Sure as night will follow day Most things I worry about Never happen anyway.”
Today, as this song cropped up in a playlist, I found myself gazing off into the distance, transfixed by the words and just amazed at how much they have determined my life. My wife quotes that lyric at me, a lot, whenever I cannot sleep for worrying about some work situation that is out of my control, or some change of our » Continue Reading.