Well as I’d splurged my private life all over these here ‘pages’ on a few occasions (like here and here among others, I thought some of you might appreciate an update. Also as a thankyou to the many folk on here who told me it would get better, and I’m here to tell ya – it does.
GLW tells me 3yrs ago that she ‘doesn’t want to be married to me anymore’ but we’ll continue as a ‘couple’ for the kids’ sake.
We live under same roof but in separate bedrooms since then. I still hold out hope that things may change but make no major changes in my mindset to bring about that scenario. Life plods along.
Mid-Jan this year she tells me she’s met someone. Cue emotional meltdown from me – the full (well actually a mad fluctuation between the first four) Kübler-Ross.
Many uncharacteristic tears (the full unstoppable tsunami) from me later, as well as many sarky remarks on both sides and all the rest of it, I have now arrived at:
Acceptance. Now open to the possibility of a new relationship for myself, whereas in my bleakest moments I literally could not imagine such a thing. Had one of those bittersweet and ironic moments the other night with the (still) GLW where we had a good chat about things and I even mentioned to her that I had been told that a friend of a close friend was, like, totally into me. She was genuinely happy for me (as the ‘dumper’ in this scenario the last thing she wants is me being a kind of Ghost of Christmas Past – a role I was more than ready to fulfil for a while!) and we had a laugh about the situation.
I hope this flicker of romantic interest develops but even if it doesn’t I can definitely see that my sackcloth and ashes self-flagellation was faintly ridiculous.
So – a rare moment of positivity from me. Enjoy 🙂